My Journey Home
In January 2016, I was a busy, 31-year-old University Lecturer that had been diagnosed with chronic fatigue. I didn’t have time to be sick, but there I was, physically and mentally paralysed.
This began the journey home to myself.
Early life experiences left me feeling worthless, but I was too young to know how to articulate my reality. And even if I did, I had no guarantee over how it would be received. So, I dug a hole somewhere deep inside of myself and buried my truth in the hope that nobody ever found it. I set out on a quest to become the person everyone expected me to be. This had such devastating consequences for my physical and mental health that developed a myriad of consequences from a young age – constant colds, migraines, allergies, chronic tonsillitis, arthritis, depression, polycystic ovaries, food intolerances, OCD and anxiety. The doctor’s surgery felt like a second home to me, but no amount of medical intervention was ever going to unveil the burden I was carrying. So, I carried on pushing and performing my life until my body and mind couldn’t cope.
In January 2016, I was a busy, 31-year-old University Lecturer that had been diagnosed with chronic fatigue. I didn’t have time to be sick, but there I was, physically and mentally paralysed. This began the journey home to myself.
It was from this paralysed place that I had to take a long, hard look at myself.I’ve spent the last four years slowly journeying back home. I’ve been guided by a range of holistic health professionals using techniques such as breathwork, meditation, mindfulness, yoga, talk therapy, tapping, essential oils, reflexology and nutrition. I’ve learnt more about myself and the world around me in the last four years than I did in my previous thirty years. My breakdown was the catalyst for change and transformation that I needed in order to find my truth. The journey of self-discovery has become my passion and purpose. I now have the honour of guiding others home to themselves too. My life now has authentic meaning and I know I’m here to share what I’ve learnt with those who need to hear it. 🖋️ Written by Laura De Pian @laura_de_pian